‘Gurl, you do you,’ is a saying I’ve heard many times, but something I’ve never quite put into practice… Until now. I started 2018 with one promise to myself and that was to be more selfish. In fact, I wrote a whole a post on how I was going to focus on myself, my health and my happiness. Just like the majority of new year’s resolutions, my promise lasted a couple of weeks, if that. Typical.
The last few weeks have been somewhat of an emotional rollercoaster. I’ve been so low, yet I haven’t been able to put a finger on the source of these feelings. Blaming a whole host of things, but the reality is, I’m actually the one to blame.
It wasn’t until a person, who I admire, love and respect, sat me down and told me some hard-hitting truths. Yes, I balled my eyes out and yes, others agreed with him, which made it all the more clear. But, instead of dwelling on it, I took that negative energy, harnessed it, and channeled it into positive changes. And here’s the changes I’m making…
It’s Never Too Late…
Not many people know, but I use to dance. I did performing arts in school, I attended a dance school in Sunderland, I’ve performed countless times at The Sunderland Empire and I even won a few awards. I stopped dancing when I was around 21 because my journalism course at university got too much, and now at 26 I’ve decided to take it back up. Stepping into a dance studio again was very nerve-wracking, but I’m three weeks in and I can’t believe I didn’t force myself to do it sooner. I absolutely love it and I’m surprised to find that I’m not the oldest in the classes, or the only one who’s a beginner. I’m starting with commercial and ballet, and in a few weeks I’m hoping to push myself to do a heels class!
Run, Forest Run…
Before I moved out into my own house I really got into running; I even completed the Sunderland 10K. I love running because I find it helps to clear my mind. Focusing on my breathing and technique rather than everything that’s going on in my head. For a year now I’ve lived near Herrington Park and not once used the running tracks in there, which is silly really! So, the last few weeks I’ve made the effort to drag myself out of the house and hit the tracks. I can’t run far and my average speed isn’t fantastic, but it’s a start.
Taking Time Off…
I use to feel super guilty when I didn’t post on my blog. I have no idea why I use to make myself feel so bad about this because now my attitude and completely changed. If I post, I post, if not, the world isn’t going to end. If you’re an avid reader, you’ll know I haven’t been posting as much and it’s because I’ve been putting blogging on the backburner and spending more time with my friends and family. Making this change has made me feel so much more fulfilled.
Investing In Me
I know many of you won’t believe this, but I never really spend any money on me. If you follow my fashion posts, then you’ll know I’m always ranting on about how pathetic my wardrobe is and it’s true. Once all my bills are paid, I have a little left over for skincare bits I need replacing and being social with friends. I couldn’t tell you the last time I went shopping and just spent money on clothes and make-up. Lately, I’ve making more of a conscious effort to treat myself and invest a little of my hard earned money on me. I can’t tell you how good it feels to have some new clothes to wear – oh the little things!
Dreams Come True
Saving for a holiday is super hard when you have your own home, and since there’s so much we want to do in the house Corey and I are always putting off holidays. Lately, I’ve had a change in heart. Yes I’m desperate for a new bathroom, but we have a mortgage over 35 years, so while we have plenty of time to decorate, our 20s aren’t going to last forever. This is why I’ve come up with ‘holidays and then the house’. At the moment we’re currently planning the dream holiday for our 10 year anniversary. I can’t wait to reveal it – watch this space.
It’s only been a few weeks and I already feel like a new woman. Seriously, I feel like I have a new lease of life. I’m the happiest I’ve felt in a long time. Both my mental and physical health is better too. Instead of feeling stressed and flustered, my head is clear and content, and I’m feeling alot better in myself and my body. Who would have thought that focusing on myself would result in such changes.
Sarah Jayne x