Everyone has their idea of a perfect Christmas. For me, my Christmases have been the same for years, however, this year Christmas will be completely different. I knew that moving out of my family home would change my life, but I didn’t realise until now that my traditions would change along with it.
For years Christmas Eve has been dedicated to pampering myself – a bubble bath and brand new jim jams – and helping my mam. While my dad was chilling on the sofa, or at the pub, and my sister was at work, my mam and I would have far too much fizz, indulge in festive nibbles and somewhere in between prepare all the veggies for the roast dinner. It even brings a smile to my face just thinking about all the laughs we had trying to cook while just a tad drunk.
Since this is the first year that Corey and I have lived together we have no idea what makes our perfect Christmas. In fact, we have absolutely no traditions together when it comes to this holiday. For us, Christmas time is family time and we don’t normally see each other until 8pm/9pm on Christmas day. Last year, we didn’t even open our presents off one another until 11:30pm, right before we went to bed!
To go from spending the majority of our time with family and each having our own traditions to absolutely nothing is quite stressful for me. All I want is for us to have the perfect first Christmas, but it’s hard to live up to something that you’ve never had before.
At the moment I feel like nothing is going quite right. I failed at making the house look and feel festive because the house is still in ‘decoration’ mode so we’ve only put up a tree and a Laura Ashley Christmas reed diffuser. Our real tree is already starting to droop since we got it far too early and I’ve had to decorate it twice now as the fur babies thought the fairy lights were dental floss.
We still have zero plans for Christmas Eve; Corey believes that we should have a HUGE Chinese takeaway and open one present, where I’m thinking more along the lines of nibbles, drinks and exchanging new jim jams. It’s safe to say that we haven’t come up with a compromise yet.
Now, don’t even get me started on Christmas Day because I have no idea what’s happening. I thought I’d just be going back to the family home for dinner, but my mam and dad are in the process of moving too, so Christmas could actually be at my house yet. This is another thing I’m so not mentally prepared for, baring in mind I don’t even have a dining room table. Basically I’ve never made a Sunday dinner before, nevermind a full-on Christmas dinner (I nail Pasta Bake though) and I just know if it’s left to me dinner will be ruined.
As you can see, I’ve been putting an obscene amount of pressure on myself to try and live up to this idea of a perfect Christmas and all I’ve done is stress myself out. I mean, what even is a perfect Christmas? I’ve decided in the few days running up to it, I’m going to stop overthinking and planning and I’ve just going to go with the flow. I’m going to put all my worries and problems in the ‘fuck it’ bucket and just enjoy it. Let’s be honest, as long as I’m with my nearest and dearest eating Turkey while sitting on the living room floor, at least I’ll be with the people who matter most, and that’s what Christmas is about, right?
What’s your idea of a perfect Christmas? Have you been stressing yourself out like me?
Sarah Jayne x